I felt myself in a solitude so frightful that I contemplated suicide. What held me back was the idea that no one, absolutely no one, would be moved by my death, that I would be even more alone in death than in life.
在做出这个决定之前，我觉得孤独得那么可怕，以致想去自杀。把我克制住的是这样的想法，就是没有人，绝对没有人会对我的死而感动，我死后会比生前更孤独。